You’re an idiot for having a lapse in judgment to think otherwise.
i really feel as though im walking without a mind or feeling or presence in this body today. surreal.
i just cant wrap my head around it. how someone can go from the sole planet your future revolves around…to…a stranger you think deserves to be punished.
I have difficulty reconciling my title of family fuck up and my status of financial back up…
Of the shittiness, I’ve grown accustom to going to sleep discontented.
been more grateful thankful happy blessed lucky for having anyone ever before. nor will i ever be same for anyone who ever crosses my path in the future.
the beginning of the week-nights,
where i hear them all laughing and yelling a few feet below and away from me,
that i realize how much of an outsider i am from the very people with whom i share blood.